Reaction continuing to increase (yea!) and the itching is starting to drive me CRRRRRAZY! Like with my face, the best way to "scratch" is not to scratch but stretch my neck around as much as possible. The skin pulling kinda feels like scratching.
Sleeping still isn't a problem yet (unlike with my face and chest), so I have high hopes that will be the case the next 2+ weeks.
Thursday, November 14, 2013
Monday, November 11, 2013
The Next Round - Day 7 - November 10, 2013
FINALLY - SOME REACTION! My perspective has changed SO much since my first round of being terrified. Now, I WANT IT. Now, I want the reaction, see more reaction, see more sores....no, I'm not a twisted psyche, just someone wanting to see the fruits of my labors and I want to kill more and more cancers and pre-cancers :)
Itching started pretty heavily Friday (Day 5ish) and I tried wearing long earrings today because I wasn't thinking. They just drove my itching crrrrazy, so off they came. 2 more weeks!! Don't know why the photos have so much red. Maybe I'm straining my neck too much trying to maximize the light? Will keep trying.
Itching started pretty heavily Friday (Day 5ish) and I tried wearing long earrings today because I wasn't thinking. They just drove my itching crrrrazy, so off they came. 2 more weeks!! Don't know why the photos have so much red. Maybe I'm straining my neck too much trying to maximize the light? Will keep trying.
Friday, November 8, 2013
The Next Round - Day 5, November 8, 2013
Nothing visible yet, but the itchies have started! Wacky as I am, I'm glad...to go through this and NOT get any reaction would suck. I want to see some cancers and pre-cancers die :)
Thursday, November 7, 2013
The Next Round - November 4, 2013
Time for Round 4? 5? I actually don't really want to know! Pattern seems to be pick an area each fall and spring and just see what happens. This fall I've chosen my neck, so of course I'm hopeful the reaction isn't real strong since I can't hide it with clothing :)
Just like with my face, there's only 1 little rough spot (in the dip at the bottom of my neck) and the rest just looks like an ol' lady wrinkly neck! When did THAT happen?!?! So, I'm hoping the reaction isn't severe.
Forgot to take pics before I put the cream on, so it's certainly easy to see where I'm applying. Basically the front and both sides of my neck, from jawline almost to collarbone. Debated the back of my neck and hopefully I won't regret not doing it, but it seems so hard to reach accurately.
Started the treatment Monday morning (today is Thursday) and getting a couple of itchies, but that's it.
Like before, I've put on my "special" pillowcases, so I don't get cream on my fun sheets. If needed, I've got Aquaphor and the Mupiricin steroid ointment ready to go for when I stop treatment. No anxiety this time around. Thank goodness for THAT! The first round with my face had my office wondering if I should be committed. But, it was such an unknown then, plus, I had to wait several months for winter to come before I could start it...made me a basket case back then.
Not worried about changing anything. Still have a 200mile training ride with my buddies Saturday. So, here I go again! :)
Just like with my face, there's only 1 little rough spot (in the dip at the bottom of my neck) and the rest just looks like an ol' lady wrinkly neck! When did THAT happen?!?! So, I'm hoping the reaction isn't severe.
Forgot to take pics before I put the cream on, so it's certainly easy to see where I'm applying. Basically the front and both sides of my neck, from jawline almost to collarbone. Debated the back of my neck and hopefully I won't regret not doing it, but it seems so hard to reach accurately.
Like before, I've put on my "special" pillowcases, so I don't get cream on my fun sheets. If needed, I've got Aquaphor and the Mupiricin steroid ointment ready to go for when I stop treatment. No anxiety this time around. Thank goodness for THAT! The first round with my face had my office wondering if I should be committed. But, it was such an unknown then, plus, I had to wait several months for winter to come before I could start it...made me a basket case back then.
Not worried about changing anything. Still have a 200mile training ride with my buddies Saturday. So, here I go again! :)
Friday, August 9, 2013
August 9, 2013 - Never stop living!
Never stop living!
Work and cycling continue to consume time, as it does every summer :) I'm still bummed with about $500 still left to pay off on the spring surgeries. Weird as it is, I'm "comforting" myself that last spring, there were 3 surgeries, this spring 2 surgeries...at least I'm going in the right direction, right?!
But life absolutely goes on!! And it goes on OUTSIDE, which is where I'm happiest.
Two weeks ago I completed the 1200k (756mile) Grand Randonnee in Alaska and actually had to worry about SUNBURN! Alaska is beautiful, the weather was amazing and the people I got to ride with were spectacular! My only downer from the event was the roads were so bad (bump, bump, bump, bump that never ended) that my body parts started failing so by the 2nd day, I actually wondered if my knees, back and achilles would hold together another 400 miles. They did, with lots of highs and lows, but I was glad this event may be a "one and done" event, unlike others that I look forward to repeating. Alaska is in an abnormal heat/dry front right now, which this Texas gal was grateful, though woefully unprepared for! I started each day with as many layers on as possible, then stripped as the day went on. I'd tucked my little 70spf travel bottle in at the last minute and thank goodness I did. My arms didn't get saved, but my face and neck did!
Week before Alaska, Dan and I raced (and won) the mixed team 12hr race at the Tonkawa Ultra Race. Again, heat played a huge factor in winning because other teams weren't as used to it. I'm sneezing during the podium pic, but I really AM happy to be there!
Couple weeks before that was a really grand vacation including scuba diving in the Florida Keys. Still have some of the Efudex scabs on my neck but finished the last of THIS round about a week before this photo. On one of the boat photos, the scabs jump out at me like neon lights, but this one they're caught up in wrinkles :)
Fun part of the trip was diving lots of wrecks and actually making my first-ever You Tube video with the GoPro Dan got me for Christmas. Over 100' deep, no extra light and the viewing is spectacular. I've got a lot to learn, but below is a link to my first video diving the USS Vandenberg off Key West.
and cycling through the gorgeousness from Boston to Hyannis Port for the Best Buddies charity ride.
Great adventures in the last few weeks with more coming. Point is, DON'T STOP LIVING. I hope I find the picture someone took of me slathering the sunscreen on my face in Alaska because that's a choice I make in order to keep going. I've been asked why I don't get indoor hobbies....because I'm going to die....and I do NOT want to die on the couch. I'm going to go kicking, screaming and preferably laughing all the way. Not giving up my hobbies helps keep me sane. Skin Cancer....fact of everyday life and apparently for the rest of my life.
Keep Living!!
Work and cycling continue to consume time, as it does every summer :) I'm still bummed with about $500 still left to pay off on the spring surgeries. Weird as it is, I'm "comforting" myself that last spring, there were 3 surgeries, this spring 2 surgeries...at least I'm going in the right direction, right?!
But life absolutely goes on!! And it goes on OUTSIDE, which is where I'm happiest.
Two weeks ago I completed the 1200k (756mile) Grand Randonnee in Alaska and actually had to worry about SUNBURN! Alaska is beautiful, the weather was amazing and the people I got to ride with were spectacular! My only downer from the event was the roads were so bad (bump, bump, bump, bump that never ended) that my body parts started failing so by the 2nd day, I actually wondered if my knees, back and achilles would hold together another 400 miles. They did, with lots of highs and lows, but I was glad this event may be a "one and done" event, unlike others that I look forward to repeating. Alaska is in an abnormal heat/dry front right now, which this Texas gal was grateful, though woefully unprepared for! I started each day with as many layers on as possible, then stripped as the day went on. I'd tucked my little 70spf travel bottle in at the last minute and thank goodness I did. My arms didn't get saved, but my face and neck did!
Week before Alaska, Dan and I raced (and won) the mixed team 12hr race at the Tonkawa Ultra Race. Again, heat played a huge factor in winning because other teams weren't as used to it. I'm sneezing during the podium pic, but I really AM happy to be there!
Couple weeks before that was a really grand vacation including scuba diving in the Florida Keys. Still have some of the Efudex scabs on my neck but finished the last of THIS round about a week before this photo. On one of the boat photos, the scabs jump out at me like neon lights, but this one they're caught up in wrinkles :)
Fun part of the trip was diving lots of wrecks and actually making my first-ever You Tube video with the GoPro Dan got me for Christmas. Over 100' deep, no extra light and the viewing is spectacular. I've got a lot to learn, but below is a link to my first video diving the USS Vandenberg off Key West.
and cycling through the gorgeousness from Boston to Hyannis Port for the Best Buddies charity ride.
Great adventures in the last few weeks with more coming. Point is, DON'T STOP LIVING. I hope I find the picture someone took of me slathering the sunscreen on my face in Alaska because that's a choice I make in order to keep going. I've been asked why I don't get indoor hobbies....because I'm going to die....and I do NOT want to die on the couch. I'm going to go kicking, screaming and preferably laughing all the way. Not giving up my hobbies helps keep me sane. Skin Cancer....fact of everyday life and apparently for the rest of my life.
Keep Living!!
Thursday, June 6, 2013
JUNE 6, 2013
Work has been insanely busy (as has cycling training this spring), so my latest round has been neglected for sure. Short version is 2 more surgeries and another round of Efudex on my neck this spring has me going from being pissed off to just being resigned. This is a "forever" something and I'm just incorporating it into my life like haircuts. Not really that casually, but I'm trying to be extremely accepting.
So, the longer version.
Since I work 7days/wk for a couple months each winter, my "normal" has been to have my derm checkup, usually late February and did that again. They ask if there's anything in particular concerning me and, as usual....yes, these 2 particular spots for sure. Both malignant. Both requiring surgery. Since the surgeries March 2012 took me a year to pay off, I begged my doctor to do them herself, which she reluctantly agreed to.
#1 spot - Top of my forehead above my left eye. Started as just a teeny dark spot that looked like I poked myself with a needle, but nothing on the outside of the skin. Remained just a small dark spot, but it was definitely different! Since I can wear bangs, I was fine with the scarring she predicted. About 3 months later and I'm pleased with the results.
#2 spot - My left shoulder blade. This one turned into a booger. I'd already tried treating it on my own with Efudex a couple times. Both times it would fester, even bleed during treatment, but never reallllly go away. She said I could try 8weeks of Efudex treatment if I wanted to, but it's a pain in the butt, so I asked her to cut it out to.....especially since I'd already tried Efudex and I didn't want to deal with another surgery later. Do it and get it over with. This one was quite a bit larger and so the scar's a little uglier. But again, I'm 50 years old and live an active life, a shoulder scar is pretty acceptable right now.
#3 Efudex - Had a small little pink spot show up on my jawline about the middle/end of this April. Since I had a 765 mile bicycle event I'd been training for this spring, I chose to wait til it was completed and started treating it May 5. I was SHOCKED! The teeny little spot on my jawline turned into the entire right side of my neck. Areas several inches away from the treatment were reacting! But I also had a scuba + bicycle vacation planned end of May, so I chose to limit the treatment to the 20 days and will do my entire neck this fall.
All in all, I'm tired of continuing to find these things, but I'm also glad to find them sooner than later. Our insurance changed at work last year, so my cost was a LOT higher for the 2 in-office surgeries, which disappoints me, but my doctor is working with me to pay it out over the next 6 months or so, so at least I don't have to rob savings.
Still choosing to keep living at 100% Just finished diving in Key Largo and Key West for a few days, then went to Boston to ride bikes for a few days. I'm certainly diligent about sunscreen, but oooooooh, it's hard sometimes!! I see these lovely, tan ladies and I wish I didn't......but I still think "brown fat's better than white fat!" I told a black girlfriend of mine that and she just howled...and then agreed :) The fake tan stuff comes right off the minute you're in the ocean for a while, so no point in that. Ah well....trade-offs.
My encouragement to you continues to be WATCH YOURSELF! Do not rely exclusively on your doctor. They're human and they can screw up. It is YOUR responsibility. You know your body better than anyone. Be diligent. You don't have to freak out or be scared of everything, but you do have to keep both eyes open. I truly believe the spot on my forehead would've been missed by anyone but me. I knew it wasn't there one day, then it was there the next. And it never went away.
Hope my travels through this can motivate you to keep an eye on yourself. Ain't nobody else going to! Be safe and have fun on the way :) I'll add some pix shortly.
Thursday, October 11, 2012
October 11, 2012
Never realize when I neglect the blog until something reminds me. Today, it was a buddy at work asking if all is good....and yes....it is.
Surgeries from the spring cleared up nicely and boy are the scars from the plastic surgeon noticeably "prettier!" Was a tough financial pill to swallow (I'm still paying monthly deductible payments, but got 0% through "Care Credit." If you have to have surgery, ask your surgeon about Care Credit. Depending on the surgeon's offer, they offer 0% for different terms, which is definitely helpful!)
I'm finishing another round of Efudex on my breasts. They start off the size of a pencil eraser and then just like before...reaction spreads...then I spread the treatment....reactions spread more. Next time, I'm going to just draw a giant circle around the little spot and treat the WHOLE DAMN THING! I've always been one to tackle the hard stuff first and this is no different. If it's going to react, then let me react as much as possible and kill as much cancer as I can.
Right now, the treatment areas center on my breasts, so no photos and believe me that's a good thing :) Sores are definitely larger and more concentrated, so I am absolutely glad I'm doing it! I haven't changed any of my routing this time around either. Workouts have stayed the same, even have a 400mile race 2 days from now.
As in the past, the itching DRIVES ME CRAZY, but I don't want to put anything on there that might even even the teeniest chance of decreasing the Efudex efficacy. I plan to just grind it out, then use the steroid ointment after the treatment ends.
I continue to be surprised when I get feedback and requests, but please keep asking. Can't believe how much this gets read and I just hope it helps prepare some folks better than my doctor prepared me.
Surgeries from the spring cleared up nicely and boy are the scars from the plastic surgeon noticeably "prettier!" Was a tough financial pill to swallow (I'm still paying monthly deductible payments, but got 0% through "Care Credit." If you have to have surgery, ask your surgeon about Care Credit. Depending on the surgeon's offer, they offer 0% for different terms, which is definitely helpful!)
I'm finishing another round of Efudex on my breasts. They start off the size of a pencil eraser and then just like before...reaction spreads...then I spread the treatment....reactions spread more. Next time, I'm going to just draw a giant circle around the little spot and treat the WHOLE DAMN THING! I've always been one to tackle the hard stuff first and this is no different. If it's going to react, then let me react as much as possible and kill as much cancer as I can.
Right now, the treatment areas center on my breasts, so no photos and believe me that's a good thing :) Sores are definitely larger and more concentrated, so I am absolutely glad I'm doing it! I haven't changed any of my routing this time around either. Workouts have stayed the same, even have a 400mile race 2 days from now.
As in the past, the itching DRIVES ME CRAZY, but I don't want to put anything on there that might even even the teeniest chance of decreasing the Efudex efficacy. I plan to just grind it out, then use the steroid ointment after the treatment ends.
I continue to be surprised when I get feedback and requests, but please keep asking. Can't believe how much this gets read and I just hope it helps prepare some folks better than my doctor prepared me.
Monday, April 16, 2012
(Round 2) Day 35 - April 10, 2012
Healing is proceeding well...just a few scabs left and some itching too! Strikes me as weird that each photo shows me what I wish I'd done more of. Since you're going to go through tough times, just bite the whole thing. Now, I wish I'd gone ahead and done my whole neck too. Maybe next fall, I'll tackle that. At the time you're going through it, all I can focus on is what I'm going through, so afterwards, I see where I wish I'd taken an even bigger bite I guess?
This weekend, I globbed on the sunscreen of course and the spots that were really hard scabs on my arms softened up great and those scabs (and the itching that came with it) came off. The spots on my breast aren't healing like the others but I'm guessing it's because they stay in such close contact with the bra that they will just take a little longer. Assorted spots on my leg, shoulders, etc. seem to all still be progressing nicely.
Got clean bill of health from the surgeon today and will start applying Mederma to the surgery spots next week to help with scarring, etc. Since two are right below this photo, I'm looking forward to seeing progress! He continued to compliment the Efudex results on my face, so I'm looking forward to seeing my chest and other spots clear up.
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This weekend, I globbed on the sunscreen of course and the spots that were really hard scabs on my arms softened up great and those scabs (and the itching that came with it) came off. The spots on my breast aren't healing like the others but I'm guessing it's because they stay in such close contact with the bra that they will just take a little longer. Assorted spots on my leg, shoulders, etc. seem to all still be progressing nicely.
Got clean bill of health from the surgeon today and will start applying Mederma to the surgery spots next week to help with scarring, etc. Since two are right below this photo, I'm looking forward to seeing progress! He continued to compliment the Efudex results on my face, so I'm looking forward to seeing my chest and other spots clear up.
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Sunday, April 1, 2012
(Round 2) Day 26 - April 1, 2012
(I know I got THIS date right!
Itching still driving me nuts, but it's definitely better than before. The steroid ointment really helps the scabs soften up and I've been able to get quite a bit off. This time, there's not the raw skin underneath like my face because I waited a few days before using the steroid, so not as much pain as before! There's still a few isolated spots that showed after the first couple weeks and I'm going to continue treating them just to get them killed. Still.....I see other little spots on my chest still appearing and it is KILLING me not to treat them and kill them. I'm meeting the dermatologist again this week and will ask what she thinks about continuing with spot treatment event though it's getting hot outside now.
Had my first FULL shower 2 or 3 nights ago and OMI that was the best thing in the WHOLE WORLD!!! I've been taking "navy" showers since surgery to keep dressings dry. Though I've been getting everywhere, there's just something SO much better about showering all at one time and rinsing all at one time :) They're very short, so dressings don't get waterlogged, but practically feels decadent!
Surgeries are almost a week old now and I'm VERY diligent about icing multiple times a day. Nobody said to, but I figure that's what I'd do for almost any other injury, so why not there too? Plus I guess it makes me feel a little less passive. Ready for some working out.....not really, but not working out just makes me fatter and I spend more money!!
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Itching still driving me nuts, but it's definitely better than before. The steroid ointment really helps the scabs soften up and I've been able to get quite a bit off. This time, there's not the raw skin underneath like my face because I waited a few days before using the steroid, so not as much pain as before! There's still a few isolated spots that showed after the first couple weeks and I'm going to continue treating them just to get them killed. Still.....I see other little spots on my chest still appearing and it is KILLING me not to treat them and kill them. I'm meeting the dermatologist again this week and will ask what she thinks about continuing with spot treatment event though it's getting hot outside now.
Had my first FULL shower 2 or 3 nights ago and OMI that was the best thing in the WHOLE WORLD!!! I've been taking "navy" showers since surgery to keep dressings dry. Though I've been getting everywhere, there's just something SO much better about showering all at one time and rinsing all at one time :) They're very short, so dressings don't get waterlogged, but practically feels decadent!
Surgeries are almost a week old now and I'm VERY diligent about icing multiple times a day. Nobody said to, but I figure that's what I'd do for almost any other injury, so why not there too? Plus I guess it makes me feel a little less passive. Ready for some working out.....not really, but not working out just makes me fatter and I spend more money!!
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(Round 2) Day 24 -March 30, 2012
Recuperating from the 3 surgeries fine. Just wish things wouldn't take so long! Stopped the Efudex on my chest before surgery and figured 20 days was enough, which means the itching is INSANE this week!! Trying to keep my chest covered (just for no questions or stares), but clothing is driving me CRAZY! Started putting on the steroid ointment, which helps some of the itching, but it also quickly softens some of the scabs and I think that's its real effect. Since it's so gooey, gotta be real careful about washable clothing :)
I'm not positive about actual days since surgery date, but if I'm off, it's only by a day or so. I got through the week just fine, but definitely a little preoccupied and not necessarily with the blog unfortunately.
The hardest part about stopping the Efudex is that as it hits my system, I see all these other little spots showing up and I SOOO want to kill 'em!!! But it's time to stop now. Getting hot outside for starters and on my ride last wknd, it got warm and I got pretty nauseous, which isn't normal for me, so I figure it was the Efudex in my system....and they say, it must be done in the winter after all. So.....I'll plan to see what I can tackle in the fall.
I'm not positive about actual days since surgery date, but if I'm off, it's only by a day or so. I got through the week just fine, but definitely a little preoccupied and not necessarily with the blog unfortunately.
The hardest part about stopping the Efudex is that as it hits my system, I see all these other little spots showing up and I SOOO want to kill 'em!!! But it's time to stop now. Getting hot outside for starters and on my ride last wknd, it got warm and I got pretty nauseous, which isn't normal for me, so I figure it was the Efudex in my system....and they say, it must be done in the winter after all. So.....I'll plan to see what I can tackle in the fall.
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